I love real life murder mystery shows...I think I am fascinated with the stories and the psycology. I had night mares last nite that I was killing people and people were trying to kill me...I think it was because Jon and I watched Law Abiding Citizen before bed time. I awoke startled and relieved wondering if I ever really could kill anyone...I serioulsy doubt I could considering that I grew up hunting and was never able to shoot at anything more than a bird...but I do often wonder what I would do in a self defense scenario...how would I handle the choice?

I met Uzziah today in my Bible reading...since I am on a reading plan I was left hanging...so far Uzziah followed God and he has prospered his people...but there was a word in the part I did read that led me to believe that this will not last his whole life...he did leave the high places after all and seemed to be relying upon himself as he was building his armies...(which is a total weakness of mine right now...relying upon myself and doing things in my own strength...I used to submit EVERYTHING before the Lord and now while I read a lot more and pray each day I don't pray like I used to...) Or maybe it is better to say I don't rely like I used to...I am working on it though and have faith that God will bring me along...

The weather was beautiful today and I thought we might take a journey some where...but as it turns out I was too sick to venture far from home. I have been feeling sick the past few days and thought it was just a result of a hormone change...but 2 days later I am still feeling sick so I have now realized I must have picked up something some where...I think I am going to have to fast it out...drink water until I beat this thing...because every time I eat I feel sick...ugh!

Tomorrow is Church and I am very excited! I hope we like the one we are going to visit...