I am super sleepy but since I have been setting goals for myself I figure I might as well try and eek out as many a day as I can. :)
For some reason I have been sort of emotional today. Most of the day I was fine but tonight I have kind of been, I don't know, clingy, weepy...things like that. Jon and I watched UP tonight for free from Netflix where you can watch movies on your computer...Oh my gosh...why are so many parts of that movie SO sad?? I guess when I think of cartoons I think happy...this was sad in so many parts and like an adult action flick but a cartoon in others...I was kind of upset that the movie made me so emotional. Actually, almost every time I see older people I end up crying lately...I have NO idea what that is about...so I suppose this movie about an older man fits right into that "crying when I see older people" mode I am in...however I must note that I did tear up when the bird was hurt and could not get back to its babies...
Anyway...Jon and I went running again today...and even though I did not feel like going I made myself go anyway and it feels good to have gone. Today we parked down by the marina and ran through town and back. We ended up running 20 out of the 35 minutes...which I still think is good for not having run in so long...My left shin still hurts from what feels like a shin splint so I figured I should take it easy as not to hurt myself worse. I am thankful for where we live. It is nice to have such a pretty view when we run...it is a nice distraction too. And I am also thankful to have a husband who runs with me...they say people are more likely to exercise if their spouse does...and for Jon and I this is true...we are both more apt to get out and get it done if we are side by side...
My laptop is freaking out on me and is probably going to die any minute...some how all of the personalization on it totally disappeared along with all the personal files...the end is near...and while I know it is old and has done its duty for well longer than most lap tops do it is hard for me to think that it will be gone...Sometimes I am super attached to things that were a big part of my life in certain time periods...maybe b/c those "things" are what I feel are all I have left of those times..and saying goodbye seems a little too harsh for me right now...I mean for goodness sake, Jon was looking at a new lap top the other day and was saying how much better the new ones were than mine and I seriously was offended that he was talking about my laptop that way and almost picked a fight because of it...I had to catch myself before this little bit of insanity took over...I think I am a little more than just a little bit attached... when it does die I am pretty sure I am going to hoard this huge piece of metal (all 7 beautiful pounds of her) b/c I am just not ready to let go yet...
I am still reading in the OT and for yet another day more stories about how the Kings of Israel and Judah forsook God and followed after foreign gods...even when they went in and defeated a group of people b/c of the Lord they ended up leaving the victory and turning to the gods and idols of the people they just decimated with the help of God...SERIOUSLY?? Today all I could ask God was if I am as stubborn as those people...never learning...always falling for the same things over and over and over and over...continuing in the sins of my parents and their parents before them?? I am starting to get ready to meet Josiah or someone who will return to the Lord...
Speaking of God, Jon and I have yet to find a Church...We are going to visit another Church this weekend and I hope that it will be a place we can plug in to...The word "deployment" keeps coming up over and over and while I am a strong and independent woman I do not relish the thought of my husband being sent off on a boat with me not having a job, Church, or friends...Supposedly we will find out in August when Jon will be going on a boat...I am excited for him to get to see the world and get to work on his college courses while he is away but I am very sad at the thought of him leaving me...behind...I know it is selfish but I want to be with him when he sees Asia for the first time, I want to be with him when he steps foot in Greece for the first time, I want to be wandering the lands of my ancestors with him and lay eyes on it when he does...One thing I remember thinking when I lived overseas and was blessed by getting to visit all the places I got to see was how it kind of made me sad that I was making so many memories apart from my future mate...I was sad that there would be so many parts of my life that they would never really understand...there would be so many stories that they would not get and would never get to relive with me...and now I think how this time I am going to be the one at home...not understanding what my husband is going to be going through and wondering how that is going to effect our marriage...you always tend to bond with those you journey with...and my heart is sad that he will be journeying without me...Oh gosh I am a tearful mess so I should probably stop this and get to bed...until tomorrow...
For some reason I have been sort of emotional today. Most of the day I was fine but tonight I have kind of been, I don't know, clingy, weepy...things like that. Jon and I watched UP tonight for free from Netflix where you can watch movies on your computer...Oh my gosh...why are so many parts of that movie SO sad?? I guess when I think of cartoons I think happy...this was sad in so many parts and like an adult action flick but a cartoon in others...I was kind of upset that the movie made me so emotional. Actually, almost every time I see older people I end up crying lately...I have NO idea what that is about...so I suppose this movie about an older man fits right into that "crying when I see older people" mode I am in...however I must note that I did tear up when the bird was hurt and could not get back to its babies...
Anyway...Jon and I went running again today...and even though I did not feel like going I made myself go anyway and it feels good to have gone. Today we parked down by the marina and ran through town and back. We ended up running 20 out of the 35 minutes...which I still think is good for not having run in so long...My left shin still hurts from what feels like a shin splint so I figured I should take it easy as not to hurt myself worse. I am thankful for where we live. It is nice to have such a pretty view when we run...it is a nice distraction too. And I am also thankful to have a husband who runs with me...they say people are more likely to exercise if their spouse does...and for Jon and I this is true...we are both more apt to get out and get it done if we are side by side...
My laptop is freaking out on me and is probably going to die any minute...some how all of the personalization on it totally disappeared along with all the personal files...the end is near...and while I know it is old and has done its duty for well longer than most lap tops do it is hard for me to think that it will be gone...Sometimes I am super attached to things that were a big part of my life in certain time periods...maybe b/c those "things" are what I feel are all I have left of those times..and saying goodbye seems a little too harsh for me right now...I mean for goodness sake, Jon was looking at a new lap top the other day and was saying how much better the new ones were than mine and I seriously was offended that he was talking about my laptop that way and almost picked a fight because of it...I had to catch myself before this little bit of insanity took over...I think I am a little more than just a little bit attached... when it does die I am pretty sure I am going to hoard this huge piece of metal (all 7 beautiful pounds of her) b/c I am just not ready to let go yet...
I am still reading in the OT and for yet another day more stories about how the Kings of Israel and Judah forsook God and followed after foreign gods...even when they went in and defeated a group of people b/c of the Lord they ended up leaving the victory and turning to the gods and idols of the people they just decimated with the help of God...SERIOUSLY?? Today all I could ask God was if I am as stubborn as those people...never learning...always falling for the same things over and over and over and over...continuing in the sins of my parents and their parents before them?? I am starting to get ready to meet Josiah or someone who will return to the Lord...
Speaking of God, Jon and I have yet to find a Church...We are going to visit another Church this weekend and I hope that it will be a place we can plug in to...The word "deployment" keeps coming up over and over and while I am a strong and independent woman I do not relish the thought of my husband being sent off on a boat with me not having a job, Church, or friends...Supposedly we will find out in August when Jon will be going on a boat...I am excited for him to get to see the world and get to work on his college courses while he is away but I am very sad at the thought of him leaving me...behind...I know it is selfish but I want to be with him when he sees Asia for the first time, I want to be with him when he steps foot in Greece for the first time, I want to be wandering the lands of my ancestors with him and lay eyes on it when he does...One thing I remember thinking when I lived overseas and was blessed by getting to visit all the places I got to see was how it kind of made me sad that I was making so many memories apart from my future mate...I was sad that there would be so many parts of my life that they would never really understand...there would be so many stories that they would not get and would never get to relive with me...and now I think how this time I am going to be the one at home...not understanding what my husband is going to be going through and wondering how that is going to effect our marriage...you always tend to bond with those you journey with...and my heart is sad that he will be journeying without me...Oh gosh I am a tearful mess so I should probably stop this and get to bed...until tomorrow...
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