1. I LOVE Grey's Anatomy....Some parts of the show I could do without...but last night the show was awesome...intense...OK...there I said it...
2. I am really getting geared up for painting my picket fence white...Right now it is a mixture of old grayish looking boards and new boards they put up right before we moved in...I guess the last people who lived here must have done a bang up job in order for parts of the fence to be missing?? How does THAT happen? Anyway...it will not be perfect...b/c as I look out the window at it I can even see that the tops of the boards are not even even...but alas...after the paint job it prolly won't matter that much.
3. We have a pair of bald eagles that live in the trees in front of our house. They are pretty amazing...one of them was hunting the other day about 25 yards out into the field...and it was crazy...I read up on them b/c I am the geek who does that...one of the things that I found out that I like most about them is that they mate for life...and the only way they would ever choose a new mate would be if their mate died...I love that...I look for them every single day...and every single day I get all excited like a child when I see them...I am constantly taking pictures of them...hopefully one day I will get a good shot.
4. It is May and my heater is on...never thought THAT would be OK with me...but for now I find it charming...
5. Jon and I were thinking about getting a bird or two before we moved here...now we do not have to b/c I can simply look out my window and see them all over the place...I do not know what kind they all are, except sometimes those big nasty crows, but I love that about this place...for example..just now I looked out my window and this little blue bird with an orange chest was fluttering in the window and it made me smile.
6. My husband is a rock star. He has been making a huge effort lately to show me just how much he thinks about me all the time and it is a huge blessing. Things have changed A LOT in our relationship in the past year...I really feel like he actually listens to me now...is slower to anger...and works hard to understand me and my feelings...And in turn I am seeing how I am opening up more and am able to rely upon him more. I have big trust issues with people and as a result there are a very select few that have my confidence. I have been realizing over the past few months that while I have been married to Jon for 4 years that he has not had my utmost confidence. I do not trust men at all. Which is weird since I have had a ton of guy friends in my life time...but I guess friends are different than "mates". You can play sports with guy friends, goof around with guy friends, play games with guy friends and in none of that do you have to extend your heart totally to participate in the relationship...b/c for some reason that is often the dynamic of guy friendship...but with a mate you have to hand over your heart...and let's be honest...that scares me to death...Jon has been doing a really good job lately of looking out for me and it has been nice but what is funny is that he has been doing such a good job that I am starting to get scared...Sometimes I really just do not understand myself...but this is a new chapter and I am working on being open and sharing how I feel so I guess that will just have to be a conversation for this weekend...
2. I am really getting geared up for painting my picket fence white...Right now it is a mixture of old grayish looking boards and new boards they put up right before we moved in...I guess the last people who lived here must have done a bang up job in order for parts of the fence to be missing?? How does THAT happen? Anyway...it will not be perfect...b/c as I look out the window at it I can even see that the tops of the boards are not even even...but alas...after the paint job it prolly won't matter that much.
3. We have a pair of bald eagles that live in the trees in front of our house. They are pretty amazing...one of them was hunting the other day about 25 yards out into the field...and it was crazy...I read up on them b/c I am the geek who does that...one of the things that I found out that I like most about them is that they mate for life...and the only way they would ever choose a new mate would be if their mate died...I love that...I look for them every single day...and every single day I get all excited like a child when I see them...I am constantly taking pictures of them...hopefully one day I will get a good shot.
4. It is May and my heater is on...never thought THAT would be OK with me...but for now I find it charming...
5. Jon and I were thinking about getting a bird or two before we moved here...now we do not have to b/c I can simply look out my window and see them all over the place...I do not know what kind they all are, except sometimes those big nasty crows, but I love that about this place...for example..just now I looked out my window and this little blue bird with an orange chest was fluttering in the window and it made me smile.
6. My husband is a rock star. He has been making a huge effort lately to show me just how much he thinks about me all the time and it is a huge blessing. Things have changed A LOT in our relationship in the past year...I really feel like he actually listens to me now...is slower to anger...and works hard to understand me and my feelings...And in turn I am seeing how I am opening up more and am able to rely upon him more. I have big trust issues with people and as a result there are a very select few that have my confidence. I have been realizing over the past few months that while I have been married to Jon for 4 years that he has not had my utmost confidence. I do not trust men at all. Which is weird since I have had a ton of guy friends in my life time...but I guess friends are different than "mates". You can play sports with guy friends, goof around with guy friends, play games with guy friends and in none of that do you have to extend your heart totally to participate in the relationship...b/c for some reason that is often the dynamic of guy friendship...but with a mate you have to hand over your heart...and let's be honest...that scares me to death...Jon has been doing a really good job lately of looking out for me and it has been nice but what is funny is that he has been doing such a good job that I am starting to get scared...Sometimes I really just do not understand myself...but this is a new chapter and I am working on being open and sharing how I feel so I guess that will just have to be a conversation for this weekend...
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