My sister is going to the Chapel...and going to get marrriiiieeeddd

So we are heading off to Mississippi today...so I can go wedding dress shopping with my sister. She got engaged to a great guy in February and are getting married in May! Can we say busy few months! I am really looking forward to the wedding...it is going to be beautiful...I am excited to hear Jon sing Matthew West's new wedding song for the ceremony...I have been listening to him practice and it is going to be amazing...I am giving a speech...and feel a wee bit of pressure! It has been a while...At least at Karen's wedding I had no advance warning so I had to fly by the seat of my pants...now I have months to think and prepare and hope I don't embarass the bride or myself too much in the process!

God is and has been very good to us as far as the layoff goes. While Jon has not really come any closer to having another job, God has been providing for us. Our Church is going to pay our bills for the next month so we don't get even FURTHER into debt than we already are from the previous layoff..and well, so we can at least eat and stuff! And a Music Minister friend of ours employed Jon for a few days to help on house repairs. I am just thankful that God is showing Himself in a time when my heart is fragile. The Bible says God will never give us more than we can handle...and for a while I was starting to wonder if God was over estimating me...

On another random note Jon found one of my old prayer journals last night and spent some time reading through it. I kinda panicked! No one has ever seen into my private walk with God or my heart like that before. Apparently I used to have some good things to say...He encouraged me to read back through it so that I could see where God was at work...I think that could be a very interesting journey. I started keeping prayer journals in college and don't think I have read back through any of them before...Now might be a good time for a walk down memory lane. It has been 12 years since I became a Christian and so much has happend in that time period. Some I am sure I will be pretty embarrassed about...like old crushes and silly trials...and some hopefully some what mature. I guess we will see...

White gowns and sparkley things here I come!

It is a good thing hope and faith have been rising in my heart because otherwise finding out that my husband was getting laid off from work would have probably been very hard to handle. He just started working three weeks ago due to being laid off a few days before Christmas from his last job and not being able to find work for almost two months...and now we are there again...except this time as least I have a proper perspective and so does he....God is in control and will work it out...The economy is bad and 23 employees from my workplace got laid off today...times are harsh.

I am very thankful that I am starting a new job in a week....hopefully it will help us get by until Jon finds another job...in a time when local fast food restraunts have 50 applications from people looking for jobs...

God help us...

I some how have become one of those bloggers that has not blogged for months...I think it is because my blogging is a picture of my life the past months, well more like close to a year...I have for the first time in my life been in survival mode...and with that seems to come a lack of extra activity and creativity...

Survival mode is not the greatest...while there are bright spots along the way, it is as if life is mundane...one day after the other...with happiness but maybe not joy...My walk with God has been pretty poor...maybe not even able to be called a walk...but like one day on the journey through life I took at seat in the valley and kinda stayed there...part of it my fault...part of it someone else's...but no matter what brought me here...I have taken to the side lines...

With the coming of spring, yay for weather that is sunny and in the 70's, I for the first time in many, many, many months feel hope starting to creep back into my heart...my heart has been so hard and bitter that I sit in Church on many days and wonder what it is going to take for it to soften back up...forgiveness...that is the answer...and not just verbal forgiveness but from the heart free and clear forgiveness so we can move on...so we can have life as God intended for us to have it...in full.

Here is to hope, and faith, and to getting back up and starting the walk once again...atrophied muscles and all....