Jon had a talk with my dad today...

What day is it?

I want to say thanks for everyone who has been praying for me.

What came of the ordeal, which I realized later, while was VERY hard to deal with, was NOT my worst nightmare. Nightmarish yes, but with Jesus walking me through...so much easier than I thought it would be. Not that satan doesn't still try to play mind games with me in regard to the matter, oh boy does he, but at the same time it forces me to my knees in prayer, as I know only Jesus can get me through. He is the healer, the redeemer...

What did God speak to my heart?? He spoke down to me and said, "dear child, how many times have I forgiven you for your tresspasses against me, how now could you consider refusing forgiveness to someone else?"

I have been on the grace crash course this year apparently...and I know it is only because of Jesus in me that I am able to handle this as I have.

Love. Grace. Forgiveness. How deep are they.

Good things are to come.

Sometimes you wonder if your worst nightmare is ever going to come true.

Mine officially has. I need you all to pray for me even though I am not giving you specifics. Pray for my wisdom and discernment these next few days as I go before the Lord to seek His will as I make the biggest decision of my life.

What is weird is though my surrounding life is chaos right now...my heart some how manages to have the Peace of the Lord. Storm without...peace within...yet another miracle of the Lord.

Seek the Lord for my heart to FEEL, because right now I don't feel like it is ever going to feel again...