Wow. Time is flying by...and my sis JUST told me I need to update. She wanted me to post this picture from Christmas day:

Thanks for everyone's words about lying. That morning in Church I was flipping through my Bible trying to find every verse there was about lying...I was sure there was going to be one about liars going to hell or something like that. (Those of you that know me and the Bible know I know there is NOT a verse in the Bible that says that...I just WANTED there to be one...kind of...b/c I was hurt.) Anyway, instead God brought me to the 1 Corinthians 13 verses about love. I was like "FINE God, I will read it!"

 I got to the part that talks about love not keeping a record of wrongs...and there is where my heart found peace. So, I went to the person, asked them to read those verses and talked to them about the lying. I told them how it made me feel to have them lie to me and then told them that at the same time God had told me that if I REALLY loved them, I would not keep a record of wrongs against them.
 It was nice that for once my love was not conditional upon how they responded, but instead upon how God says love should be.

What would you guys do if you found out that someone you loved lied to you?

Simply asking God to increase my faith every day is totally changing everything about my walk. I can't believe it!

This time last year I was in India. I can't believe that time has gone by so quickly.

Life is guuud!

Peace out brothers and sisters!

Slipping, slipping, falling. My spirit calls from deep within to turn my heart in awareness, forcing me to my knees on your behalf. Intensity I have not felt in ages. Please Lord! When will the passionate pleas abate? Not until the battle is won and only my spirit will know. Babe, please be alert tonight as the enemy is near.

A few hours later my heart knew the battle was won...this time.

How I know my faith is real:

Sitting in my house Saturday night and the Holy Spirit inside of me tells me evil is near...not to me but to someone I love...and it brought me SO hard to my knees. My heart fully aware of the battle that was waging, yet full of a peace that passes all understanding...the only thing I know is my spirit going into auto-pilot...begging, pleading with the Lord for His presence, His intervention, His protection.

Then last night, to find out the exact time period my Spirit was on high alert, forcing me to my knees, the battle was real, the exact person my spirit was interceeding for was in the thick of battle...the enemy SO close. And when my spirit abated? The exact time the victory was won.

Now, you tell me Jesus is not King of King and Lord of Lords.

This morning Jon and I were Mary and Joseph in a Christmas play at Church.  It was interesting and Jon did an awesome job singing "Mary did you know". One lady pulled me aside and told me that watching him sing that song to me the way he did in rehersal made it evident that Jon loves me...wowzer. I am starting to learn that not all things should you tell your boyfriend. This will be one thing I won't share with him. But it sure was nice to hear. Does he love me like some people think he does? I guess we will find out won't we.

For some reason the Good Lord had me up at 3:45 this morning. It ended up being a great time for quiet time. I have started a new Bible Study called, Believing God, and I think it is going to be a good challenge for my walk. It is a Beth Moore one and one of the lines in the intro says that God told her that He never said he wanted her to believe in God, but rather believe Him. Very interesting...makes you evaluate if you really do believe Him when you look into His word and don't take Him at it. I find myself every day asking the Lord to increase my faith.

I am tired. I guess that happens when you get up at 3:45. I am tempted to skip tonight's Christmas Party but know I really shouldn't. I can crash on my sister's couch soon after its conclusion only to get up at 3:40 tomorrow am to take her to the airport.

My boy has started a new job which means I don't see him much any more. It honestly has been an issue the past few days as I have been trying to adjust. Anyway, it was nice today to have a few hours after the play to be able to just relax with him alone. It has been way too long.

Time sure does seem to fly by these days. I am not entirely sure how, but some how it manages to. J and I talked things through and worked them out. Thanks for everyone's encouraging words. I know I need to work on my trust for J and only the good Lord will be able to help me do that. I guess I should be thankful I am dating a guy whom other girls want to chase down, because he is so great, but part of me would rather just have it the easy way, the way that does not challenge my weaknesses. My weaknesses seem to be becoming more apparent to me these days...but with that is also coming a greater dependence on God for being the goodness. Grace, amazing grace, has become such a head lifter for me these days as God walks me down the road of rooting out all the stones of ungodliness I am coming across in my life.

Other wise this week I subbed a lot, went on a job interview for a job I didn't get, taught 2 Missions Bible studies, and have been trying to help nurse my VERY sick boyfriend back to health.

Finally, I am VERY ready for God to give me a full time job that I can count on...if I could mark any one thing that would be a great challenge for me in the discouragement department it would be the job situation. I am determined to Praise the Lord through this part time job situation and wait it out, but I can be honest and say it is getting harder and harder as my bank account continues to decrease. I guess that might just be the point...so I will learn to do it no matter what.

I am blessed. Period. I want to be like Job and fall on my face in praise of the Lord even if everything in my world is falling down around me. Because while the world may be a mess, my God never is...

My boyfriend is pretty much being stalked, now I wouldn't have put it that way before today, but when I had to get off the phone with him b/c this girl had followed him on the interstate and then all the way into the Church parking lot to talk to him, I will put it that way...and well, they were the words out of his mouth. I am upset and I hate it. I hate that I think it is partly his fault. He could have/should have put her off a long time ago and this makes the 3rd time in 3 weeks I have had to deal with his attention being diverted to her b/c of her antics...I am mad. And I am sad. I am emotionally a mess and I hate it. I hate that I am crying, out of anger, dissapointment, sadness...I don't know. Is this girl really a psycho? I don't know and I wish that I wouldn't be so affected by it. You guys, please pray for me.